I know. I know. I KNOW! I’m sick of people telling me the things I already know! I know that I’m young in love, I know that everything is going to be different, that he’s going to change, that he wont have time for me, that she will FOREVER be in the picture.That after a while he’ll start to forget about me. The one thing I don’t tell people/him is that I’m so scared of what the future has to bring, so afraid of getting hurt, that I cry myself to sleep at night sometimes because I’m not sure if I can take it. I usually play it off as if it doesn’t bother me when people/him talk about this. This is something that is killing me it really makes me think how I finally got someone who truly loves me for who Iam, someone who brings so much happiness into my life. To think I can lose him in an instant. He can tell me a million times that he loves me and not once will I want to believe him because I’m so afraid he’ll run off with that old bitch, but I do believe him because I love him too, but will he still love me once he’s holding her I’m his arms how will I know that at that moment he still loves me? If his whole world is going to change in that instant, when he falls in love with his baby girl he’ll do anything I’m his power to make her happy. For him to take a 360 from hating the bitch to try to make it work for the baby, I’m so afraid of that…. They all tell me to walk away, that I’m only hurting myself but I know, I know I should. Some how I’m still here. I thought I knew what I was getting myself into but I actually really have no clue what’s about to hit me…..